Been a while

Lately I haven't had a lot to write about.

Looking for work seems to be a trend, the newspaper says there are jobs. The businesses post job offers, the job offers are never filled so that you see the same jobs over and over. No response at all is the norm, when you do get a response they usually have a person in mind already and are willing to talk to you, but not make a serious offer.

Oddly the only two serious offers I've had require moving. I don't have the money to move though - so catch 22. No money to move, no place to stay if I try anyway.

I don't have a lot of resources or space, so turning my home into a woodworking shop or something of that sort is out. I do have a camera and know how to use it. So, I've been a photographer for three years now.

I'm sick of working alone, sick of being bored, sick of the long hours editing photos and computer failures meaning refunding clients everything since I cannot afford to fix the computer and must limp along on a laptop. I love photography, don't get me wrong. I chose a passion. I just want so badly to be in a team again. I miss the team dynamic more than anything.

If photography took off and there were clients every day, I would still miss interacting with at least 20 people a day, driving projects forward, learning every day, and applying my brain full throttle.

I didn't want to get into business for myself. I wanted to do this while I found work. I knew what it takes to start a business. A min of 30 grand investment, advertising, etc. I knew I didn't have those resources. So... Why am I still here?

Resumes don't work.
Headhunters have been completely dismissive, often not even bothering to call back when they promised.

Government resources like a workshop in Red Deer were completely useless. They said my resume was great, refused to book me in with someone in the industry to confirm, and despite me making the trip from Edmonton to Red Deer for help, advised there was nothing they could do. The same woman went gaga for my roommate and called for him several times, although she also failed to help him with a resume or getting someone to call and go over it from his industry even though that was her job function.

At this point, it's time to start again. So, I went the quiet way, keeping most of my life private and giving no one fodder to say no. Now it's time to reverse that and see what happens.